what is with all the spam messages btw???

its clogging up my email address and they all say the same "i bookmarked you" thing... annoying!

ive gotten 18 so far today how do i make them stop!

Oy  what am I gonna do with Amber...

My bestfriend is the most awesome friend ever..but when it come to life and boys especially...she..well she turns into a girl

Unfortunatly im not really one to talk , ive been where she is, but I feel like ive woken up a little better then she has..maybe im a faster learner i dont know...but I just dont know what to do sometimes for her..theres not much I can do, ive said everything I can and I repeat myself so much I feel like a broken record.

So ,let me paraphrase the situation for you. Amber likes this boy named Tyler..He lives in another province tho..he liked her and does like her but she went there for two weeks (shes back tomorrow) and I guess while she was there he learned the real Amber..and isnt as interested anymore. She becomes a girl about everything she cant just be cool, she lets her emotions take over and the word vomit comes out. She asks more questions she over thinks she starts to assume he doesnt like her cuz hes not always saying it... Hes fed up.He kicked her out cuz she got wasted and made an ass of herself and he doesnt drink cuz he used to do that as well and is over it.Eventually they talked and she stuck around the second week (actually only cuz she had to..greyhound wouldnt let her on the bus til the 8th)

Anyways sooo I talked to him on msn cuz I wanted to know where hes coming from...and what he wants outta this.

He likes Amber, He does..I just dont think in that way. He doesnt wait for anybody. And he thinks Amber really needs help...and doesnt want her to move there cuz he knows shed be doing it for him and not for her... Amber realllly wants to be with him and is becoming obsessive about it...she gets back on thurs morning..And its gonna be alot of girl talk..and alot of saying what I already have.

What do I do?? As soon as I was done talking to him she wanted to know what he said. I told her nothing...I dont wanna tell her while shes there ya know? I dont wanna ruin her last night and I dont want tyler to have to go through her emotionalness that she'd go through should I have told her. I told her to have a good time its the last night, get laid and Ill see you soon.  I just dont know what to do with her, fortunatly it doesnt affect me at all but at the same time she is my best friend and I just want her to be happy and not go all crazy cuz of  boy..I dunno what to do..any advice??   Unfortunatly anything people tell me..ive probably already told her but im open to some feedback so please feel free, Im sure plenty of people out there have destructive bffs...I hope she learns :(

So its been a month since we broke up. And quite frankly...I was over it in a week haha. Not that I didnt feel strongly about Brent and I still talk to him alot via text and at work occasionally but I knew he wasnt it for me..

So "moving right along.." as i said.  My dad taught me I need to file through them quicker cuz the quicker you figure out what you want the sooner you can get rid of the guys that arent providing that for you.  And hopefully find the right one a little quicker in the long run.

Sooo

what do I want in a male...

Lets make a List...top 10 things that I need in a boyfriend/relationship:

not neccisarily in order...

- Must be social ( this means he goes out with buddies a couple times a week)

-Must play a sport/ watch hockey

-Must be good looking and confident (not cocky)

-He has a very sarcastic sense of humor and we challenge and feed off one another

- Must follow through with plans/things he says

- Must have a good out look on life and is positive and has goals/ wants a successful future job family etc etc

- Must not smoke do drugs  drink alot or play videogames on a regular basis

- Must have a sexy flirtyness to them...sexual chemistry is everything..He cant have no sexdrive

- He has to be somewhat romantic or atleast not afraid to show or say how he feels

- He must be intimate and  we must have those "in our own little world"  moments.. like noone else matters or is around even when there is.

Thats all I ask for. Haha ..the perfect man...well so far I think Ive found him...

and I know ..been here before...but I dunno... hes awesome... Everytime I hang out with him I like him more...and visa versa too..I like that he openly admits he likes me ..alot of guys wont do that

So weve hung out the past 4 days ..except tonight we just talked all day via text.

He kissed me yesterday when he dropped me off :)  it was...wow.  He had the kiss haha.Hes very intimate and very fun...He makes me quite excited. I refuse to ruin this one.. I will not be a drama queen at all.  I want something real... something natural and something I cant live with out..and I dont think Ive been ready til now. I think Brent taught me alot. Although he wasnt the one..I know what I did and what I wont do again. Ive gained a bit of confidence in even a month and im trying to stick with it..and so far so good I think.

omg so cute I got in Andys (the guy) car yesterday and he was speechless hes like woah....wow ...you look... wow haha    I was just in regular clothes but did my hair and make up pretty well and I kinda scrubbed out the last couple of times so I tried a little harder and thats the response I get..so Yay. haha Anyways...something about him...but Im taking it really slow..well as slow as he wants to go.. He told me he got very attached to his ex (theyre very over its not an issue no worries) but I think he told me just to let me know he can get attached...which really.. i dont think im that lucky haha when ever I feel strongly about someone something happens :(   So hopefully thats not the case. Time Will tell.. I could fall hard tho... Gulp..    =)

xoxox